It’s probably going to suck. Do it anyway.
When people are on their deathbed, here’s what they wished:
“I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.”
You really have no choice.
The only option is to wait, “until you’re ready.” Oh, yeah? When’s that going to be?
First steps always suck. Don’t worry about it being perfect. You’ll get better, probably when you least intended to.
For today, pick one thing you want to do from the bottom of your heart (e.g., “Write something,”). Then, take a deep breath, and do it. Don’t let up until you’re done. If it’s too ambitious to accomplish in a day, then make it smaller (e.g., “Write 300 words,” instead of, “Write something awesome”).
Even if it sucks, you didn’t let yourself down.
You’ve succeeded for today.