POETRY | LIFE LESSONS
Blinded By Lust
The 100 Questions for 100 Days Challenge — #4
Today’s question — What is my personal blind spot; what have I been unwilling to look at?
Once my blind spot
you could do no wrong
high upon a pedestal
worshipping you afar
O I’d give life and limb
for but one moment
to be held by your eyes
But I’ve grown cynical
no more sweet drops
to moisten my day
no more naiveté
I see you as you are
a monster — no charm
all teeth and claws
A lonely doll no more
no longer so desperate
or slave to lustful needs
I’ve snipped your strings
marched out that door
a freed bird once more
© 2020 Lori Carlson. All Rights Reserved.
One of my mental illness diagnoses is Borderline Personality Disorder, which means because of my skewed personality, I have addictions to reckless things. One of my biggest addictions was sex, generally with strangers, with little regard to my own safety (with the exception of STDs). It has taken me a little over thirty-five years and a ton of therapy to realize how trapped I’ve been because of my obsession with sex. I used partners when I was lonely and tossed them away before they had a chance to abandon me. So the monster here is my obsession/addiction.
I have accepted Dusty Holcomb’s 100 Question Challenge. Each day I will answer a new question from 100 Questions That Will Transform Your Life. I will write either poetry, vignettes, creative non-fiction or personal essays on the questions — it will all depend on inspiration and/or mood.
Lori Carlson writes Poetry, Fiction, Articles, Creative Non-Fiction and Personal Essays. Most of her topics are centered around Relationships, Spirituality, Life Lessons, Mental Health, Nature, Loss, Death, and the LGBTQ+ community. Check out her personal Medium blog here.
