When I was a teenager I spent at least 13 hours a week, every week, at church. I made myself a part of every activity that went on in the community, even if I wasn’t invited or even eligible to participate. I’d often show up and offer to do jobs that no one else wanted to do, so my presence was appreciated and welcomed with open arms.
However, as I grew older, things began to change. First, I got a job and started taking a heavier course load at school. Then, I moved out on my own and began navigating life as a young adult. Juggling the new changes in my life meant I was increasingly exhausted — so exhausted I was burning out — so I stepped down from an official role in leadership.
I realized my decision to step back had given rise to resentment and a skepticism about my commitment to Christ.
At first, my pastors and church friends told me they understood. But as time went on, I realized my decision to step back had given rise to resentment and a skepticism about my commitment to Christ. For years I tried to resolve the doubt, disappointment and guilt that I felt by…
