Something New
Frantically searching online
for something to do,
somewhere to be.
So many events
for the most obscure things,
Corgi Owners Meetup, Single Accountants Ages 29–39,
Let’s Meet Up to Draw the Moon!
I just want to find something
that will make me happy.
Something that will make me feel
like I actually belong here
in this city,
in this world.
I wonder if I need to change myself,
find new hobbies,
wear different clothes,
dye my hair.
But these are all surface level changes.
What I need is a reckoning,
where I face everything I hate about myself
and either accept those things
or change them.
I wish for the kind of change that releases
ripples all across the lake.
Or the kind of change
that everyone can’t help but talk about.
No —
I wish for change
that breaks the sound barrier,
a loud boom and then I’m gone
and the new me is here.
