Dysphoria . . .
Published in
May 13, 2023
I never cease to be surprised at the fluctuations in my energy level, motivation and mood.
Knowing that bi-polar disorder is in my family is not all that helpful — giving up sugar to even out energy, taking anti-depressants and availing myself of strategies to give myself a jump-start just don’t seem to give me the ability to predictably control slipping into the slough of despond from time-to-time.
I wonder if “this” time I won’t emerge. Then, slowly, I feel myself surfacing again — enjoying and anticipating and not envisioning my body like that of a slug. And I begin to ride the wave again.
One would think that I would have learned that the lack of hope is all part of being in the trough.
