Brick By Brick

Shana Carroll
Apr 16 · 3 min read
Credit to Geoffroy Van Der Hasselt, Getty Images, CNN, AFP, and Associated Press

Yesterday the world watched Notre Dame Cathedral burn. News agencies used terms such as “world tragedy” and “one of the darkest days in French history” to describe the destruction occurring to the cathedral that was being renovated during Holy Week.

What if the burning of the cathedral represented so many tears spent after torture at the hands of the Roman Catholic Church? What if the burning represented the anger at an organization responsible for systematic oppression, genocide, and global molestation of children?

As the building caught fire the Pope responded in a mere matter of minutes to call for a time of global prayer at the loss, and vowed that the French would rebuild their “mother” church. Minutes, to call for action on behalf of a building.

Together Francis and Benedict over the last decade have a history of blaming the worlds problems on LGBTQ people, and those that do not subscribe to Roman Catholic stances on sex and gender. Yet yesterday I was called on to “mourn” the loss of one of their buildings? Yet what has the Church done for me? Nothing but attack, vilify, and give propaganda to the stripping of rights to people across the globe.

For me watching the building burn brought up a range of emotions, from vindication, to anger. I will not mourn the loss of a building used to collect funds to take away my rights, and decry my basic humanity. No, I can not say one ounce of me is at all sorry for the loss the church is experiencing. Maybe, The Roman Catholic church has from many, it has from trans and gay people, and it has from the world because of it’s imperialism.

The Cathedral of Notre Dame is . Going back to when the church was built it was a symbol of Roman Catholic power, built in the midst of the crusaders as Pope were power hungry for land, and to wipe out Muslims. In 1209 just twenty years after the cathedral was consecrated there was the at Beziers. A whole city waylaid because they didn’t hold to “traditional” Catholic thought. By 1212 the Roman Catholic church was sending to fight the Crusades, applying “ a child shall lead them” from the Bible to a means to raise more money to ransack Muslims across Europe and the Middle East. Fast forward two hundred years and we have the murder of in France because she didn’t dress or act like a woman, though she was used for her military power, and then discarded when no longer needed (like many women and children have been used and discarded by the church). And yet today we still have a church that denies women authority, fights against contraception, attacks LGBTQ people at every turn, and is still a system that hides rapists in it’s highest ranks.

No I will not mourn, if you have lived what I have yesterday was nothing short of cathartic.

All I could think of is the day the organized church is buried, that their castles of power fall, and that all people are made equal.

All I could sing yesterday were not words of mourning, no they were the words penned by Hayley Williams a rallying cry almost that sings,

Go get your shovel and we’ll dig a deep hole, to bury the castle, bury the castle.

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