Were My Past Relationships A Waste Of Time?
Or did these men serve some purpose?
I was almost 40 when I got married. Before meeting my angel, I had my share of relationships and experienced heartbreak more than once. More than twice. When I look back on these men and the years I put into such losing propositions, I wonder how much of it was just a waste of time.
Starting with my high school boyfriend. We carried our relationship into our college years and even got engaged. But he attended college in another state and I eventually discovered what I’d suspected for a while. He was involved with another girl.
He didn’t want to end it with me or her and convinced me to put up with the way things were until after graduation. He would break up with her then and return home to me.
What an absolute fool I was. I agreed to go along.
When he graduated, he chose her over me and broke our engagement. I was devastated. I thought my heart was shattering and I would die from the agony of it. But guess what? I didn’t.
A month later, when things weren’t working out between him and his new girl, he began calling me again. At first, I felt like the victor. Like I’d won the prize.
