I Didn’t Recognize Grief While I Was Going Through It

For over a year, I didn’t know I was grieving

Christine Schoenwald
The Wind Phone
Published in
5 min readJul 26, 2023

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A bald woman with vibrant blue eyes holding a freesia flower to her forehead.
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“You’ll love this,” he said.

I wondered how there was anything to love about Cynthia’s death.

“She died on the commode.” He paused. “On the toilet. Like in your monologue.”

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Christine Schoenwald
The Wind Phone

Writer for The Los Angeles Times, Salon, Next Avenue, Business Insider, and Your Tango Christineschoenwaldwriter.com