What I learned after interviewing myself
According to Bianca, interviewing yourself will allow you to discover your innermost desires, goals, and hopes. This was very alluring to me, so I decided to try it.
Bianca only sets basically one guideline- go with your gut. This makes sense because if you overthink this, you’ll give yourself time to make up answers to the questions and there will be no self-discovery.
I’m ready and I’ll try to answer as best I can!
- What motivates you more, failure or success? Definitely failure. When I have setbacks, I push myself to get back up again and be even better than before. Success makes me complacent.
- You can ask anyone in the world a question. Who and what would it be? My sister is no longer in this life, so I don’t know if that counts, but I would like to ask her a question. I would just like to know if she’s happy now.
- If you could say one thing to your 85-year-old self, what would it be? I would say to myself, “Look, I’m trying really hard to get to that age in decent shape. I’m exercising, and eating healthy, and generally keeping a positive outlook on life. So I hope you’re feeling well enough to dance on your next birthday.”
- If you could say one thing to your 15-year-old self, what would it be? I would tell myself, “Don’t be so afraid to do things, or say things, or try things. You really can’t mess up your life. You’re stronger than you think and you’ll be able to deal with any obstacle that you find. Don’t worry too much about the future. Enjoy the now.”
- Imagine money is no longer a thing, how would you spend your time? I would probably spend more time writing. And taking road trips.
- If you stripped away all the layers of other people’s expectations and desires for you, what would you want for yourself? I’m not sure, I don’t really care for other people’s expectations of me.
- What’s one thing you’ve been putting off doing? Running a 5K, and a 10k, and more. I keep saying I’m going to do it but I never do.
- What headline would you like to read in tomorrow’s newspaper? That the Syrian government and all the rebel factions have agreed to end the war. I’m a fool, I know.
- What do you want written on your gravestone? I would like to be cremated, but if someone wants to engrave something somewhere, I would like it to say, “Beloved wife, mother, grandmother, and great-grandmother.” I want love and family to have been my greatest accomplishments.
- What is a perfect day to you? Truly? A day that I get to spend time with my family making memories. I’ve had a few days like that in my life, and I would like more of them.
- What do you find annoying in this great charade we call “modern life”? That some people can be just so stupid. Stupidity ruins everything, even the best intentions.
- What are you most looking forward to in life? I’m looking forward to the day when I can have a Christmas dinner with all my family sitting at the table- my husband, my children, and my grandchildren.
- If you could change just one thing in your past, what would it be? (And no, “nothing” is not an answer) I wouldn’t change an event, but something about me instead. I would be more daring, bolder, speak up more, be more assertive. I think I’ve let many opportunities pass because I didn’t reach out to get them.
- Would you want to be your own friend? Probably not. I’m not a very good listener and I don’t like to chit chat. I’m not very sociable at all, not very fun to be around. I’m a lousy friend. Ugh.
- Describe the last five years of your life in one sentence? And the next five years? Struggle, success.
- When did you last do something for the first time? Last June, I tried to do jump lunges for the first time. It was hard.
- How many hours a week do you watch TV? And browse the internet? If you added them up, how much time would you have to create something of your own, per week? I watch TV an hour each day, and I browse the internet for two hours a day. That means I would have 21 hours every week free to create something on my own. But I also spend a lot of time writing on my online blogs, so I don’t count that as browsing on the internet.
- If I gave you 10k to start a business, what would you do with it? To tell the truth, I would invest it in the family business. My husband and I run a dog-training center, but it’s very small scale right now. I would like to make it grow. We have some many goals and dreams for that business. I’m sure it would be something worth putting money into.
What did I learn about myself?
That I’m a really lousy friend. That’s something I need to work on. I need to have more friends in my life.
That I value family above career and work. I don’t care as much about being successful professionally as I care about having a family to share my life with.
That I would have like to be more self-assured when I was younger, but that I learned to face my fears over time. That’s something I’m proud of.
That I would like to travel more. And spend less time working my ass off. I have to do something about that.
That after 40 years of my life, I’m still a work in progress. I guess growth is a journey that never ends!