Out of Man’s Control

Clarice Eagle-Jones
thegrowl
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4 min readDec 13, 2016

I believe in the human mind. The human mind has a mind of its own, that can’t be controlled or contained. That you can never expect how your mind will react to any sort of event.

I am very passionate about being free minded and letting your mind change the way it needs to. For instance, after any sort of traumatic event, you could suddenly have an immense fear of loud noises, like PTSD(post traumatic stress disorder). MD J. Douglas Bremner says, “Traumatic stress is associated with increased cortisol and norepinephrine responses to subsequent stressors.” Which is a process in the brain that we as humans can’t control. Bremner better describes it by saying, “Traumatic stressors such as early trauma can lead to posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), which affects about 8% of Americans at some time In their lives, as well as depression,substance abuse, dissociation,personality disorders, and health problems. For many trauma victims, PTSD can be a lifelong problem. The President’s New Freedom Commission Report highlights the Importance of providing services for mental disorders related to early trauma. However, the development of effective treatments is limited by gaps in knowledge about the underlying neurobiological mechanisms that mediate symptoms of trauma related disorders like PTSD.” From personal experience, I grew up in very abusive household where there was tons of yelling, addiction, abuse, neglect, and a lot going on. At 16 years old, I was diagnosed with PTSD. I was okay with the fact that I had to live with this disorder because I couldn’t control how my mind decided to handle my chaotic childhood. But at the same time, I feel that in order to be happy about the way your mind changes, you have to understand that it is beyond your control, and you have to be very free minded. You have to believe anything is possible, that sometimes change is okay, and you need to let your mind do as it pleases according to what you have or are experiencing. For example, in a town where being gay and not straight is frowned upon, I feel that if a child were to have been mistreated in any way during their childhood, that they may have lost their sexuality, depending on the stress from being different from what society wants you to be or on what abuses you faced growing up, which is the most important time of your life because your surroundings and memories form you to be the person you are once you’ve grown up. Their childhood comes back to them in a way where they’re not quite sure why and they can’t help it but feel a strong need to be transgender or any other type of sexuality. (Quoted from Help for Adult Victims of Child Abuse) “Being forced to be sexual on an adult level leaves the child not being able to develop his own desire, sexual orientation or interest. He/she doesn’t get a chance to explore sex in an age-appropriate way. The child learns that the abusers sexual desire is a scary, out of control, force and his/her first sexual experiences of arousal are linked with shame, disgust, pain and humiliation.” Further Discussed by this website, “ They may think that they are frigid, or be confused about homosexuality, or maybe they just feel that they are dysfunctional all together because they do not understand that they are suffering from the effects of the abuse.” Since it is somewhat out of their control, it is not their fault, yet I believe you have to be okay with any type of person’s choices or mindset because you never really know what caused them to come to that point or the journey they have been through.

The human mind was made with such a science that not even the most intellectual person on the planet can become to understand or fully fathom it. We can’t explain why your brain reacts in different way and why each person’s brain is so diverse and different. It also has to do with your heart though. After being through so much you heart starts to affect your mind,the way you look at people or even situations. Love is one of the biggest emotions that all of our emotions wrap around to. If someone gets lied to a lot by a loved one or made hollow promises, it can affect their trust towards other for a very long time, but the person that experiences this, can they, in any way, control how their mind and heart reacts to this sort of thing? No, sadly they can’t. I know that some people can get really frustrated at the way their mind has changed and made them think just because of things they’ve been through, but in actuality it’s nobodies fault because until humans as a race can fully understand the human mind, there is no way that we can even begin to predict why our mind reacts to certain things. What man has come to do is use pharmaceutical drugs to assist in the diverse chemistry of the brain; some can reverse, stop, slow down, subdue, and alter the effects of some disorders. So medicines are created because man feels out control of the human brain. They have some control over it by using drugs like that are programs for people. But in actuality I don’t think man will ever feel in control of one of the most complicated things known to man.

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