Hope
My mind needs some happiness
In order for it to blossom
Hope
Yeah, I have hope for my soul
I hold it so dear
Yesterday and today hit a bit different
I read about St. Karas and it comforted me
I felt really bad recently
Called my friend
All these things about getting a fix
And CVS
Yeah, you know it was all jokes
Why is my mind so paranoid
I feel like people are out to get me
I just want to be loved
But this hit me
The artist I love so much
Whose name shall not be mentioned
Everytime I think of her
It makes me kind of sad
I was so sweet to her
But if she loved me or cared about me
I would probably never know
Nobody wants this dude
With low confidence
And anxiety here and there
I look like I’m gonna break down
But she was kind of distant
No sweet
No distant
No sweet
My mind plays tricks on me
What would it take for her to know I love her
If I died saving her, would she even care
No
She would probably just stare at my lifeless body and grin
You know I wanna die a Martyr anyways
Speaking of Martyrdom
I know about the new world order
Everybody has their eyes closed
Yuval wants people controlled
I want people free
Egypt don’t be arrogant
I know rejection may be immenent
Not by her
But by everybody
She is just a symbol I guess
Even if she really loves me
She can’t stop me
I have something I need to go and do
In order to go take care of humanity
You see
My hands are tied
Tape isn’t on my mouth
But I’m trying to speak
Danger is near
And what I must do
Is innovate
We are the product and commodity
And this isn’t how it’s meant to be going down
Social media is ruining everybody
You are controlled
Controlled Opposition
You know it is a thing
Ever heard of Edward Snowden
Read all the warnings
Hey, guys what is going on here
Anybody out here want to tell the truth
Or did you lose hope
Hope
Do you revile me
Are you gonna want to light me up
See me nailed on a cross
Hope
I know what it is
There is lots of things that is coming
I have to be mentally strong
Even those sorrounding me
My greatest advocates on this earth
In human flesh
And they think I am weak
Youssef’s hope is down
He sees me distracted
He looks short distance
Hey Beshoy
Not, you Beshoy
But Beshoy from the UK
You may not know me personally, but why are you losing hope
Don’t you know our church and our traditions are real
I know you’ve been struggling lately
I got it
But if you are reading this
Don’t quit at it
You are getting distracted
And all these raps and curly hair and girls here and there aren’t gonna save you
Hey, why did I just say that
Why would I think your name is Beshoy
Oh, wait, just a guess
Who even reads these poems
I force read them to some people
Just wishing others heard
But I really just want to talk about human emotion
Human condition
My mind is estoric
Remember
We went over this
Hope
