Liar
Liar
Well they say the devil is the father of all lies
Look what he did to me
Look what he did to the world
He is snarky and mean
And plays tricks on the mind
Until you don’t trust yourself
Oh, what a shame
Look at me
Did I actually do enough with my life
Sitting here complaining
God forgive me
I know God respects free will
Tongue is easy to tame
Mind wonders
And thoughts go places they aren’t supposed to
I look at myself in the mirror
I hate myself
Liar
I know I got greatness inside of me
I’m self-made
Liar
I rely on others
Okay
And I don’t care what others say about me, I’m confident
Liar
I feel dumb
Mind is clouded
I’m fixated on everybody and every little thing
Scared of the real me
Thoughts are intrusive
Okay
At least I honor and respect my parents
I genuinely help them throughout my life
Liar
Sometimes it feels like I didn’t do enough
Like I am not enough and an embarrassment
I get lost in research and my work
I don’t give me creative side enough time to flourish
Okay
But at least I chase greatness over pleasing people
Liar
I am not socially naive anymore
And I will never give another chance to some people who hurt me really bad
Liar
Okay
Truth is I barely respect myself
Sometimes I’m afraid of what it is like to be loved
I know I have God’s love
But my faith is little
I act like it is not enough sometimes
Okay
But I’m fully okay with not getting married and not having children
Liar
I’m contempt with being alone
Liar
I like the idea of having many Andrew Jrs running around
Okay
Look
Nobody is perfect
Liar
Okay Christ is perfect
But we can never reach that
He is God
Instead of being too fixated on riches and people
I need to set my mind on the narrower path
Maybe soon I can have a wife
Be Andrew the great
But how can I expect God to bless me
If I’m not doing enough for myself
Worried
Stressed
And not always on the right path