Mom and Dad
Mom and Dad
Father and Mother
There is something I have to say
I’m sorry
My mind is a bit clouded
I know I deserve what I get
Embarrassing
A burden
Cunning
Selfish
Spoiled
Deceitful
Ungodly
A major annoyance
These are words that seem to thoroughly describe me
I know I’m made in God’s image
But am unhappy with who I have become
That’s why when I stare at myself in the bathroom
And look at the mirror
I feel like vomiting
Then tripping on the vomit and bashing my head
It is a metaphor
Don’t bash your head
But I got so much sadness
Anguish and anger inside
One time when I was young
I made my family late
To driving us to school
A drunk driver crashed through the car right in front of ours
Man that could have been me that is dead by that driver
There were so many times God
I wanted my life to be over
But you loved me
When I had barely any love to give
Even the people that hate me at church
Or laugh at me
I don’t expect any apology
Because I deserve far worse
Look at me
A foolish man who reveals all his feelings
Mom and Dad
I know I cause you anguish
Sometimes it feels like having hope in me is like catching falling knives
I made your life difficult
I made it a burden
I was given a set of basic instructions
The bear minimum and I did the opposite
Have you ever seen in your life
Somebody like me
Mom, I know why you did what you did
At that one so called church
That one place
It is all my fault
Look at my other family even
Deep down I know that they don’t respect me
I feel like a clown
A joke indeed
Imagine if everybody was like me
The stubborn child
The grown man child
I could be better
I could be edifying myself
Mom and Dad
Is this what you wanted
