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How my little world is dealing with the pandemic

The privilege to sit at home Photo by Anshu A on Unsplash

Stage 0: I’m Fine, this is great!

When it had all started, I did not imagine that sitting here in the comfort of my room would be difficult. I encouraged the thought of having the opportunity to work from home. I had imagined that the comfort of my warm bed and soft blanket while taking calls and working my way through numerous work calls and meetings would be straightforward.

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Stage 1: Realization

I was doing alright. Waking up at 11 am, opening my laptop to start attending calls by 1 pm, working myself to the ground up until about 1 am, after which I would order some dinner online and fall asleep by 4 am. This was me-time after all. The boundaries between life, work and sleep were getting blurred. The weekends are for you after all, right? No. I am pursuing my MS in Data Science, so I spend about 9–12 hours studying on the weekend as well. After this went on for a couple of weeks, I realized I was burning out.

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I realized I was in a hell of my own creation.

That’s not possible, everyone is going through this, right? Right?
Yes, that is true. Everyone is going through this, albeit, being miserable is a choice.

Stage 2: Ignorance is bliss

Let’s talk about fat people.

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Big changes do not happen overnight.

When we think about health, the only tangible thing that comes to mind is our body (The irony). We eat right, exercise and feed our body to be healthy. Yet, you are unhealthy. The reason is that health consists of two things that have equal importance — the vessel that carries us and the mind itself.

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Stage 3: The Pandemic License

At this point, where everybody in the world (Instagram) was doing so well, I was at the point where I had given myself the freedom to well, be free! I decided not to overburden myself and do whatever I felt like. It’s so weird that when we decide to give ourselves freedom how fast we become dumb and lazy (Remember how you spend your weekends and end up feeling disgusted with yourself every Monday, even though you had such great plans beginning Friday evening?).

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Stage 4: I’m trying to be better, let me try

I am that guy. I am that guy who makes an excel sheet to make life better. My parents have been in IT for over 50 years — I had to pick up something. The difference is that this is what has historically worked for me and this is how I motivate myself.

My Home Screen
Happiness Tracker

The aim of life is to be happy and have fun.

For instance, I find chopping veggies and cooking to be therapeutic, so I went ahead and added it to my happiness tracker. Here are some of my little creations I’m proud of.

Three boiled eggs, boiled broccoli, carrots and sautéd mushrooms, sprinkled with oregano
Rice with freshly chopped and sautéd beans, carrots and tomatoes. Also, two lovely boiled eggs.

Your greatness is only limited by your mind.

The Last Stage: Acceptance

I learnt to find peace in the little things and the only way to be happy was to help myself. I now do menial chores with much more interest and spend the rest of my hours being productive. If this is the new normal, just like every other stage in my life, let me define life and live on my terms.

The past couple of decades have been an absolutely golden time to be alive.

There is to be a balance of life. I am not comparing sorrows and trying to measure happiness, I am saying that things will come to a balance.

You will be more satisfied if you are able to accept and learn from the lows as much as you celebrate your highs.

The best moments come right after the worst ones. Accepting this has made my life much more blissful, as I am no longer irritated about my lows, but, rather welcoming. This means I might have rough days or nights, but when I open my eyes the next morning, I am excited and ready to get the opportunity to live my life to the fullest again.

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Anish Mahapatra

Data Scientist | Machine Learning | Fortune 500 Consultant | Senior Technical Writer - Google me. Anish Mahapatra | https://www.linkedin.com/in/anishmahapatra/