Why Does Grieving Hurt So Much?

And why doesn’t anything seem to help right now?

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Trigger warning: suicide, death, grief.

It’s been two weeks since I found my friend’s body in a bathtub. That was not a good day. Since then, my mood has been a rollercoaster. I will feel very motivated one moment, then incredibly depressed the next. I am going through a phase where I don’t want to pay…