In search of solder to mend my broken heart

Do I say it wasn’t worth it?

Beloved

Do I say because of your death, that it all wasn’t worth it?

Do I try to convince myself

That had I never had you,

Had I never experienced the pain I feel at your loss

My life would have been better?

Do I say that the time we shared, no matter how short or long

Should not have happened at all

That your earthly presence should have collided with another’s journey

And not mine

So I would be spared the void your leaving has caused

Do I promise myself to close up and not seek out love

Not seek out friendships

Not bear children

Just in case they leave me too?

And in so doing, deprive myself of love in the future

Or regret you,my beloved from the past,

All in a bid to drown out all heartbreak?

No

Because this pain,

No matter how vast and wide and empty it feels

Is a drop that is drowned out in the ocean of all the love you gave me

And of all the love I still will find

And love will always be worth the risk

Things that are broken can be beautiful again

Even hearts

Love heals

Love will bind the pieces back together, fill in all the gaps, and hold them fast.