The thing on the side

Why am I not more motivated?

If creating my own thing, is my great driving force in life, why am I not more into perpetuating this startup which is on the precipice of completion?

I can see it in myself. Every time I come home from work and am supposed to work on my startup, I just end up playing some computer game.

I guess I didn’t think it would be this way.

In the Bank, I didn’t feel super motivated to do things because I didn’t see how that task would lead towards my end goal of running my own business. However, now that I do have a budding business along the way, why is the motivation still not there?

We’ve all had those nights where we didn’t want to go to bed as we were excited about something. For me, the case was often that I was engrossed in whatever computer game I was playing. I’m talking about the feeling where you just don’t want to put the thing down.

Isn’t this what I’m supposed to feel about my startup? My supposed ambition?