I never wanted to be

I never wanted to be a writer…

I never wanted to have a blog. I never wanted to start a company in China. I never wanted to teach English. I never wanted to live out of a backpack for 7 years. I never wanted to live in dozens of different cities.

But that’s exactly what I did. Even though I never wanted any of this. I never planned any of this.

When I grew up I didn’t say “I want to become this” or “I want to do that”.

When I was young I never really thought about any of this. I mostly just enjoyed being young. And followed the philosophy of doing as little as possible with the maximum output possible. I still try to follow this philosophy to this day.

All of these things just happened.

So how did all of this happen?

I don’t know.

But I think the one thing that helped me to do all of this, to experience so many great things, to get to where I am right now (wherever that might be) is that I never really had an exact plan of what I wanted to do in life.

And instead I just went with the flow. With my own flow. I tried out many different things. And said “yes” to many different things. Mostly because I didn’t really know what my own flow was. Some of the best opportunities showed up while I was busy finding my own flow.

And today all of these things are a part of me. All of these totally unrelated things are a part of who I am. They are part of my flow. I still don’t really know what exactly my flow is but I think I’m getting there. But then again, I think you’ll never get there. And it doesn’t matter. As long as you go with it.

Most of the things don’t seem to make any sense right now. They only make sense looking back. When you can piece it all together. When you can put together all of the seemingly unrelated pieces of your puzzle and they start to form a beautiful picture.

I’m glad I never wanted or planned any of these things to happen. Because I’m sure if I wanted them to happen none of them would ever have happened…

Originally published at yanngirard.typepad.com.