What to do when you feel like giving up

This might be the worst book I ever wrote.

And I feel like giving up every single day.

Even today I felt like giving up.

I procrastinated the whole day tying to find excuses so I could stop writing that book.

So I finally started writing at 8pm.

Even though I could already have started at 9am. 11.am. 2pm. And pretty much every other hour of the day.

But I started at 8pm.

And I was still thinking about how it would be a great idea to just give up.

To just stop the whole thing.

And that’s exactly how I felt when I wrote all my other books.

Every single day.

That’s exactly how I feel every single day when I sit down, take a look at that blank page and try to fill it with my thoughts.

I’m always close to the edge of giving up.

I don’t know if it’s just me.

But if I look around and read about all of this productivity, live your dream and follow your passion self help porn out there I feel like I’m the only one who isn’t crushing it. Who isn’t killing it.

The truth is I don’t feel like I’m killing it. Ever.

Some days I feel like I’m doing ok. And other days I feel like I could do a lot more than this. That I could do a lot better. That I should have put more time, thoughts and energy into this or that.

But the truth is that sometimes you’re going to have a bad day. Or a bad week. Or a bad month. Heck, maybe you’re even going to have a bad year. Or maybe even a bad decade.

And there’s nothing in the world we can do about it. There’s nothing we can do to fight those bad days. Weeks. Months or maybe even years.

All we can really do is to not close our eyes.

Because what’s going to happen when you close your eyes is that you’re not going to see the light at the end of the tunnel ver again.

Will there ever be a light at the end of your tunnel?

I don’t know.

I really don’t know.

And telling you that it’s going to get better, that one day you’ll be killing it, that one day you’ll be crushing it is like spitting in your face while you’re already down in the gutter.

So what can you do when it feels like the sun is never going to shine ever again?

I don’t know.

I really don’t know.

But I think the first step is to realize that no one is really killing it. That no one is really crushing it.

We all wear as many masks and layers of makeup as possible to hide our scars.

To hide our ugly and painful truths, experiences, fears and doubts.

But the truth is that nothing that really matters is ever going to be easy.

And the more something matters to you, the harder it’ll get.

The more your scars and your truths are going to shine through.

And it’ll get harder and harder every single day.

It’ll get harder and harder the longer you do it.

It’ll get harder and harder the closer you get to the finish line.

Just like someone a lot smarter than me once said…

Today will be difficult.

Tomorrow will be even more difficult.

But the day after tomorrow will be beautiful.

Most people give up tomorrow….

P.S. This was part of my new book. You can pre-order it here.

Originally published at yanngirard.typepad.com.

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