My Grudges vs My Dad

Inconsiderate People are Awful

I do not desire to do good to the people who have wronged me. I don’t hate them, I loathe them! Yes, it’s a strong word. But I am disgusted by such people. I wish to do the same thing they did to me. Those ill-bred, self-centered witches that I stay away from, always find a way to get help from me without an ounce of character and gratefulness. After having their way using an uncivil method, they’ll just shamelessly step away without even a simple show of gratitude.

I did my hard work for them. And before you say, “You could have said no.” I did say no. I was never comfortable being rude to others, so with all politeness and valid reasons, I said no. But have you ever, unfortunately, had to deal with people who don’t take no for an answer? Yes? No? But you probably understand where I am going right now. Those witches were like blood-sucking leeches that would blatantly go beyond the limits to have their way. I wish to never encounter such people again.

They did it again; my friend was furious, and so was I. My friend privately started to bad-mouth them, but I calmed her down and told her that karma would deal with them and let’s not become extremists, so we should let it go. I don’t know why my mature mode is switched on with other people.

My dad picked me up after classes and the second I sat in the car, I started venting out to him and bad-mouthed the witches to the extreme. I was infuriated and feeling weak at the same time. My dad said the same things to me that I said to my friends and that enraged me even more. I mean one time, just one time I wanted him to be on my side and I needed him to bad-mouth them for once, for me. But he didn’t. He never does. He was calm.

The only thing he said: “Do good to others and just forget about it. Don’t expect them to do the same for you.”

He even said that I should still help them if they ever ask for my help again. I should be kind and let life do its thing.

I was flabbergasted and extremely annoyed.

My dad advises me to be kind and helpful to everyone, regardless of their behavior towards me. I, every time, get enraged and annoyed by his statement and even argue with him over it. I can control my emotions outside, but I can not control them in front of my family and I hate myself for that.

During the arguments, I get heated and angry and my dad is answering calmly. People use me and then they expect me to help them. And even my dad is telling me to help them!

I got annoyed and shouted, “You never take my side. I’m your daughter. You should be speaking in my favor. And still, you are siding with them. Them; who only use me for their advantage.”

This time he said, “I am not siding with anyone on this matter because I don’t want you to become comfortable with being rude to others. I want you to be selfless and kind. I want you to be strong so you won’t be hurt anymore. Because people are selfish. You are my daughter that’s why I want you to be giving and giving. And you are not weak for helping others. You’re the one who is at advantage and you will get that later in life.”

I was displeased with his statement.

At this young age, I do not understand his words because I am overwhelmed with pain and hurt by others’ behavior. When I get ached by someone, I desire others to feel the same. I am also a human. I can hold grudge against someone who has hurt my loved ones or me. But I won’t do anything bad to them, I would just avoid such people.

I believe in mutualism. If I’m putting effort into the relationship then I want you to reciprocate it. I don’t want it to be one-sided. Otherwise, I have no problem cutting people off. This is my belief and I’ll always stick to it.