When the Season Changes
Our Mood Can Change, Just Like The Seasons
Having a diagnosis of bipolar can make you self conscious, and very self aware.
I have manic episodes only, and they are years apart.
Having had an episode earlier this year has knocked my overall confidence in life, but it has bruised my self esteem.
Without wishing to sound like I’m looking for sympathy, I’m really not.
For the purpose of those who have taken time to read further, I often liken the word ‘mood’ to a change in the season. A metaphor to keep things lighthearted.
I can only speak from experience. And I’m mindful in knowing bipolar is very individual in that everyone suffers in different ways, with a variation in their presenting symptoms.
Some of you know, I work in a busy department within healthcare. This week saw conflict with a colleague. I’m not going to rant on about what I think about them, I want to mention how the ‘incident’ affected my mood for the rest of the week.
It’s been tough. The season has changed. Usually it’s a bright sunny day, and then it changed to heavy frost.
Everything has climbed to the forefront. Everything I had been working on, in my spiritual world, my affirmations, my gratitude and even my sense of self, have all plummeted.
I was dealing with life until the conflict came along.
I’m going to eat my own words and start with thankfulness for what I do have in life. I’m going to be mindful. And finally, I’m going to trust the universe, and see how quickly I can jump forward from winter into spring!
How Do You Keep Fighting Through Difficult Situations?
I like to write from experience and with authenticity, and hope it resonates with others 😊