Oct 29, 2018
Chapter 7 — Ascension & recovering from adoption trauma
In this series, I’ve attempted to explain ascension, adoption trauma, DNA and how the three are not only inherently connected but to justify how adoption is a foreign concept devoid of humanity and how trauma is passed from generation to generation via DNA.
I know this won’t be for all of you, and that’s okay, but for those who are open, I believe that this will help in some way by understanding something that is bigger than self. Bla Bla Bla …
At this point, I’m unsure what to tell you, every individual person’s meaning of “healing” is different, if that’s what you even want to call it! Some may say that the trauma we have experienced as adoptees and triad members is too much to “heal” from. So in saying that, where do you even start?
know there is no set time frame, take it on at your own pace, however, remain consistent and dedicated with your practice and you will experience many improvements, such as in mental and emotional freedom.
The three major motivation problems to overcome in the Buddhist tradition are greed, anger and delusion. If these constitute much of your motivation then your perceptions, beliefs and actions can be twisted. This may be a helpful model to help with understanding ourselves better as well as the motivation of others around us.
Trauma wounds that remain unhealed and over time the wounds are exaggerated and magnified in their painful effects by 1000, through the entities that the person is now carrying. The more emotional charge that is around the Trauma is the number one issue that leads to addiction problems. So if there are deep wounds, not only emotionally, but also around the Instinctual Mind that has to do with addiction, this wounding is very difficult on the emotional and etheric body of that human being.
Table of Contents
Chapter 1 here
- Ascension, also known as;
- The Law of One
- World Humanism
- Service to Others
- Human Rights
Chapter 2 here
- Trauma
- The Primal Wound
- Adoption Trauma
Chapter 3 here
- Narcissism
- Princess Code
- Black Madonna Network
Chapter 4 here
- Religious Violence
- Bifurcation
- Point of Divergence
Chapter 5 here
- Dark Night of the Soul
- False Parent
- The connection between Mother and child
Chapter 6 here
- DNA
- Social media
- Healing False Parent Patterns
NOW
Chapter 7
1.Healing
In order to heal from past Trauma, we will have to face the memory or event that had traumatised us at the point in time of the actual event or has been recorded as tremendous pain within the body, Brain and Soul. In order to spiritually heal the body and mind from trauma-based events, pushing through triggers is important in the spiritual integration and personality integration process.
Personal freedom is being freed of all constructs of physical, emotional, psychological and spiritual suffering, torment or limitation.. and healing starts with understanding.
Fully understanding your individual situation in regards to adoption is not an easy road by no means. We need to navigate our own and others motivations, perceptions, beliefs, and actions in order to proceed.
As the chaos generated from the planetary ascension accelerates, many people are and have been influenced by negative forces that they do not or did not comprehend. Some of these negative forces are sourcing from peoples own Unconscious Mind and Negative Ego which has reinforced a lifetime of negative habits and behaviours. When people feel unsafe and insecure in themselves they will easily resort to controlling and manipulating behaviours.
Controlling people will always assume that their needs, desires, wants and purposes are always more important than whatever yours may be.
Through emotional manipulation, a controlling person will prey upon other people’s empathy and compassion. This is a type of emotional vampire. Controlling behaviour runs the gamut in wounded personalities of people that have low self-esteem, fear based thoughts and when these fears are left unchecked, this need to control others may progress into narcissistic and Psychopathic behaviours. One important point to understand about controlling behaviour is that it will always lead to some form of psychological or emotional manipulation which promotes deception and lying.
Just sit and think how these types of behaviours are at play with in and around the adoption triad. Every persons individual situation and experiences are different and respond and behave and in alignment to them depending on the virtues and intestinal fortitude, their up bringing.
What are their motivations, perceptions and beliefs? Their actions determined our outcome, if greed, anger and delusion were part of their psyche, chances are you’ve been taken advantage of and trauma ensued.
Facing Trauma
As a baby, our defences are down and we rely on other peoples virtues to respect and uphold our boundaries and basic human rights. As adoptees our basic human rights have been hijacked and by a mis informed social conscious that has been influenced negatively by people in positions of power that are psychologically damaged.
Normally all human beings that are incarnated into this earth as babies being born have the Conscious memories of their ancestors recorded in the cells of their body. In the cycles of seven years, the ancestral trauma of the past is brought through the offspring and repeated with each seven year cycle throughout the human being’s lifetime, until the trauma pattern is resolved, cleared and healed permanently. Though, through adoption, our cellular memory (See Chapter 6 part 1), our inter dimensional consciousness has been wiped, inherited and personal trauma still remains even though we don’t recognise where it comes from.
These memories are passed through the future generations into the offspring which will hold these accumulated records of memories in their body. When these accumulated memories include trauma, dysfunction, addiction and abusive relationships, these memories store aberrant emotions and belief systems generated from that original and subsequent related trauma. The energetic result is a range of potential negative effects on the consciousness of the person if this trauma remains uncleared. Therefore not only do we have our own trauma from the primal wounding of separation, we also feel our birth mothers trauma.
Self-Responsibility as Child Abused Adults
All human beings are responsible for their thoughts, deeds, actions and behaviours, in all conditions of which they are exposed. All of these are direct choices that are made by each person in the moment that will have direct consequences that impact them.
Many adults on the earth today have experienced childhood trauma and childhood abuse that results in shutting down their heart and oppresses their emotional and spiritual growth. This is designed to impair and damage their emotional competency and self-esteem in life. As challenging as it may be to progress beyond this childhood pain, it is imperative that the adult take actions of Self-Responsibility in order to free themselves from the bondage of continuing to carry that pain.
When we change the way we perceive our negative experiences, we are able to own our own emotional conflicts without blame, guilt or projection upon another person, by needing to make it their fault. The set up on earth is to disempower people into always thinking that their misery is someone else’s fault, so that they are always in a state of blaming something else outside of themselves. This creates powerlessness and cycles of victimisation that trap the person into compliance with social enslavement programs.
Genetic Pathcutting
On the path of Kundalini awakening or Spiritual Ascension the first stages for spiritual healing and ongoing will include emotional and mental body clearing of these accumulated Soul memories that are recorded from both the patriarchal and matriarchal lineages of both Family of Origins while figuring out what connect we have other timelines where the true historical record was erased from our conscious mind memories.
Clearly, when the cellular memories in our body are ignited from the changing magnetic fields and stellar activations and we have no context for biological-spiritual Ascension that shifts our consciousness into other Timelines, this can be disorienting. When this does occur many people feel deeply confused and isolated.
When feeling emotionally upset, we can restore balance to our heart and aura, by lovingly holding our personal boundaries, without violating others boundaries, by expecting them to resolve our emotional conflicts. This requires that we are willing to be open to learn what the real issue of conflict or pain is, and why it is there. The source of pain will reveal itself in your unchecked behaviours, blaming others or in unconscious reactions. Most of the time what you think is causing your pain, by judging it from what you see on the surface, is not really what is causing the pain you are feeling. It is much deeper than that. By going deeper and reflecting on unconditional forgiveness of yourself and others and allowing the time required to heal, helps to neutralise the inner conflict.
As adoptees we owe it to ourselves our to clear our Ancestral Trauma and realign without true heritage. We have been especially targeted with superimposed karmic loads, for the purpose of slowing us down and we requiring incredible spiritual strength in order to be positive and be in alignment with the Law of Cause and Effect.
Healing
When we have been severely abused as children, we grow up into adults that have very little reserves of unconditional love for ourselves. As we develop into our own spiritual parent, it will be up to us to grow as much unconditional love reserves as possible, to help restore the depletion of love that this abuse has created in our heart.
As we regain the memory of our ability to personally heal and clear ourselves to be freed from such mechanisms of suffering, we will be able to clearly perceive the root cause of our suffering. At the core level, immense suffering always exists within the disconnection and/or interference between our body and our connection to our own spiritual energetic bodies and their source light.
Our body will start to remember that which was previously hidden in order to surface these memories for emotional processing and rebalancing, in order to clear out the trauma memories and pain blockages from these assorted timelines. If we comprehend this fact, then we can take control over our consciousness energies and choose to work with them, not allowing ourselves to be manipulated by our blind spots because we have no context.
Some of us grew up with parents or caregivers who had the best of intentions and generally they did their best they could to raise us but because they too had a wounded inner child they raised us in environments where their own wounding got in the way of loving who we were while we were growing up.
Our inner child is the echo of the child we once were, playful, creative, loving and joyful but has been pushed down and forgotten because of negative childhood experiences we may have had.
Notice how it feels inside of you when you say the words “ I Love You” to yourself, we may find it easier to tell others we love them yet, how often do we take time through the day to close our eyes and say these loving words to our heart. “I love you you matter.”
When we say these words to ourself we call forth our true essence, the part of us that has no concept of negative self-talk or lack of self-love, the part of us that is whole and complete, the pure love that lives inside us the bright light that shines behind the persona we present to the world. Our true essence so beautiful, tender, vulnerable and loving.
To grow into happy healthy adults we needed to feel emotional connection to our mother and father or caregiver, we needed to feel loved and valued we needed to feel special to be accepted for who we were, our feelings needed to be respected and validated and most importantly we needed to feel safe physically and emotionally. We needed to feel secure and protected and when these needs went unmet we began to believe it was our fault and that we were flawed and not worthy of love, we abandoned our true nature hoping to get the love and the acceptance from our parents and caregivers.
Over time we developed unhealthy behaviours to avoid the feelings of shame and low self-worth that were created by the wounds of physical and emotional abandonment, neglect abuse and rejection and these unhealthy behaviours followed us into adulthood.
Because we didn’t witness healthy boundaries some of us became enablers letting partners friends and family treat us badly, some of us grew up as people pleasers longing for approval, some of us became needy and insecure, while others engage in self-harming behaviours have obsessions compulsions and addictions because or our need for love and approval did not get.
We may often feel empty spending our day seeking to find love and acceptance outside of ourselves in hope of filling the emptiness only to find out that this emptiness never seems to go away even with the right love partner, the right career and every material possession possible. We still feel hollow inside, this feeling of lack of not being enough is because we’ve separated and disconnected with our true essence and this constant need to fill is actually our yearning to reconnect with our inner child, our true self.
Realising that the only love and approval that can fill us is the love and approval we give to ourselves, our wounded inner child desperately needs our love and comfort, we need to fill our hearts with loving words that our wounded child needed to hear while growing up. Saying these words will help heal the pain and make peace with the past.
These words will bring forth our inner child, our true essence that we often ignore and push away the part that gets left behind and abandoned while busy with demands and pursuits of daily living, these words will help us embrace and integrate with ourselves and others.
I don’t pretend to have all the answers, but piece by piece I’ve started putting myself back together. Researching, studying, growing, I found my own path combining spirituality and personal understanding. This is my truth and my understanding and I know it won’t be for everyone.
There is not one way of healing, every journey is different, but there is only one relationship in this lifetime that you can completely guarantee you have the power over and that is to not abandon yourself. When those feelings and triggers/anxieties arise comfort that little baby boy and let him know that you are here now you are in control and that you are not going anywhere. Say it out loud to yourself and you may break down crying but you need to reassure him/her your primal wound that you wont be going anywhere and that you unconditionally love him/her.
Know that understanding and healing comes from unknown places deep within . Enter the world again from scratch, with body and mind, start to realign by addressing your most basic needs and assessing what was missing or broken as a result of adoption.
Our Healing begins at our very core for adoptees and first we need to establish a connection and develop a trusting relationship with that baby/ our inner child. Without doing this there will be no initial trust and it has to be there first before we can even begin to think of trusting others.
Be still, be patient, be truthful to yourself. By facing the truth you must be prepared to lose everything to find out who you truly are and heal the broken connection to others.
Please note that this journey of healing WILL re-open old forgotten wounds and is not for the faint of heart.
