3 Key Realizations that moved me out of a mediocre life.

May your choices be a reflection of your hopes and not your fears- Nelson Mandela.

I was a born thinker. As a child I would look up at the stars and wonder, “I wonder what all of this is about?”

Big questions for a child.

I guess my internal world was always a very active one. And like a lot of us learn to do, I never let my internal world “out”.

It was only for me. Thoughts and feelings that had created a myraid of stories in my mind. Stories , which only i could hear.

It served me well through my growing years and even up unitl, 5 years back. It was like a protection mechanism in place. But it wasn’t working for me anymore.I had just reached a point where I decided that things needed to change.


Well, because it just didn’t feel authentic enough, fulfilling enough.

I felt stuck. Even suffocated at times.

I wasn’t really satisfied.

There was a gnawing emptiness that was following me around.

Reminding me what i was capable of and what i was settling for in life.

A voice reminding me of my true potential.

I wanted the people who loved me to know me in all my glory… good, bad and ugly…happy, sad and fearful,…. surface level, deep and more!

I wanted to remove my masks.

So I finally took a leap of faith and opened up my internal world for my loved ones to see. Things i was scared to say i said. Bottled up thoughts and feelings of years saw the light of day. Even more amazing was the fact that they were received and accepted without any judgement. My dreams and desires finally found an expression.

That was freedom to me…liberating even!

Its like tons of weight of years had been unburdened.

And VOILA, therein started my complete transformation.

Something changed .

Something major shifted.

Its like another road opened up for me, a road I couldn’t see earlier. A road my fears and judgements had blinded me from.

This was my first big realization on this transformational journey-

what we fear is a story our mind is telling us, a story which in all probability is not true and we spend our lives believing this internal story and living smaller than we truly are. Our own magnificence gets hidden from us.

I gave up my ‘safe’ job of ten years. Dived into learning new things- things I was passionate about or wanted to know about. ( I had the ‘practical’ aspects of life taken care of.)

In the midst of all this new energy, emerged a desire to do work which was authentic to who I truly was and which allowed me to use the skill set that I knew I had.

That is when I came upon coaching and was immediately drawn to it. Before I knew it, I was in the midst of my course –learning, digging deeper than I knew was possible, understanding human behaviour from another perspective altogether. A very enriching experience.

Years of beliefs and conditionings came up for review and layers and layers within me were being unveiled.

It reminds me of what American author David Deida, said In his book The Way of the Superior Man.

He wrote:

“As you open yourself to living at your edge, your deepest purpose will slowly begin to make itself known. In the meantime, you will experience layer after layer of purposes, each one getting closer and closer to the fullness of your deepest purpose.”

The Second key realization emerged -

It truly is up to us to create the life we want. Our choices are ours to make. We ware responsible for them. We can go after our dreams everyday or we can give them up and play victim or become ‘practical’.
Something inside me died behind all that practicality and safety. It was the child that used to believe-in magic, in a higher power, in dreams coming true, in just going with the flow. It was this child that came alive once again. The spark of life was back. Joie de vivre!!

Realism and idealism found a balance.

Said Nicola Yoon-

“We are capable of big lives. A big history. Why settle? Why choose the practical thing, the mundane thing? We are born to dream and make the things we dream about.”

All the deep inner work led to lots of changes ,minor and major. My relationships around me transformed. Relationships that didn’t serve me, ended. The ones that did serve me, grew.

Whatever was not authentic to me or the person I wanted to be lost its space in my life.

I started writing. I found my voice.

I learnt to express. I learnt to be vulnerable, where my vulnearbility was respected.It felt light.

The third major Realization-

Real power is not the ability to put on strong masks, or appear unaffected, or project a ‘perfect’ life. It’s in my opinion, the ability to feel deeply and using that depth to inspire action in you own life; it’s the ability to be authentic to our own true selves( the non-egoic version of self). It takes way more courage to show up without a mask that it does to wear one. Real Courage is rewarding in so many ways!

Its been 5 years, and I’m nowhere close to done. In fact, I don’t think I will ever be or even want to be. It’s what keeps me going.

The joy of finding newer ways of being, of exploring life with wonder, of walking in the unknown with excitement instead of fear, of getting up in the morning wondering ‘what will I learn today’, ‘what gift will today bring’ –are an imminent part of who I am today.

As one of my clients said very eloquently, “we have to be the heroine/hero of our own lives”.

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