Loving, Yearning, Regretting

That Which You Cannot Have.

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Do you ever yearn, truly yearn for something? Or, perhaps, it’s someone you yearn after? An unrequited love, perhaps?

I bumped into the most gorgeous smile, worn by an elderly gentleman the other week. I was almost taken aback. I returned his smile and, instead of passing each other, we stopped and chatted. Two total strangers whose invitation to interact was a simple smile. I offered my name and as he received it, tears welled in his eyes. Time stood still, as I wondered how my name could induce tears. It’s not as though my name is “Ball-breaking Mitchell,” though given how blokes wince when I casually mention my dog’s castration, I expect the mental image would be eye-watering.

Tricia was the name of the one who got away; the woman he did ‘settle for’ had died six years prior, leaving him a widower “complaining” that he was too healthy. Despite the age difference, we discovered we were both reiki healers, though he hadn’t used his for years.

Living with the loss of a loved one, while regretting letting “the one” slip away, decades earlier, left a lasting impression on me. Love can be multi-faceted, complicated and defies logic.

I said to Heart, How goes it?
Heart replied:
“Right as a Ribstone Pippin!”
But it lied.
Hilaire Belloc

I get a similar sort of longing for the sea. I don’t live near the ocean, but at times, the pull gets so strong that I need to drop everything and drive for hours to soothe my soul. When I dipped my toe in the Mind Body Spirit waters, to see if it was my ‘bag’ (it wasn’t), I was drawn to a couple of crystals. There was no logic; I just needed to buy them. As I picked each one, the stallholder informed me they were stones of the sea. Some days, they catch my eye and I carry them in my pocket. Intuitively, I know my soul is wanting to connect with the unbridled energy of the sea.

Today, as I shuffled my oracle cards for guidance, the water card jumped out.

Goddess Guidance Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Your soul knows what’s good for you, even if you, yourself, are clueless!

“A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.” Albert Einstein

We’ve done a fine job of decimating nature and our disregard of the ecosystem we are a part of has resulted in us being in the sixth mass extinction.

There’s a reason we feel free out in nature; it’s thanks to the interconnectedness of all things that we experience rejuvenation when we return to our roots. However, if we don’t protect the earth, we won’t have the ‘luxury’ of tapping into her energy to recharge our batteries.

Whether it’s a person, or a thing, there’s times in our lives where we’re all longing for something that’s out of reach…

The only way to satisfy that longing is to act — find the courage to go after what you truly desire. And if you choose not to act, then love yourself enough to let go of regret.

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