Sat nam.

I e-mail my sponsor.

it is my writing Harriet — it is my writing
I must write

There is only one solution to this problem. I must find a way to make my own money in my own time in my own job. And so it is.

Will I do so in time?

I hope so.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

Sat nam.

Only now I see what I’m doing. With all my moves, changes, geographicals. I’m making life impossible. For me.

I do not build, lives. I deconstruct. I do not accept. I refuse. I do not let. I decide. I do not win. I lose.

And so it is.

Namaste.

God, what would you have me do, where would you have me go, what would you have me say?

Stay.

And so it is.