This day 3 years ago, I published my first blog post [Day 0] when I took my first Tarceva pill for my lung cancer treatment.
Today, we have our first kick-off meeting with a pharmaceutical company in Los Angeles. I proudly introduced myself “I’m a cancer patient turned into cancer researcher”. Cancer researcher is still a new identity for me despite I have been reading thousands of oncology scientific papers for the last 2.5 years. And it will probably take others a long time until they recognize me at one. However, I am no longer live for validation nor recognition!
I did not plan to announce my cancer via that blogpost. It was simply a note for myself like any other journaling platforms. I did not know how Medium works, and simply think that no one will read/pay attention to the note until I share it to Facebook or other social media. I did not know that the story published to a publication will also be shared on my personal story. In Wordpress, when we setup a new site (which I believed similar to publication on Medium), no one can even find out that link in bazillion of things on the Internet. But somehow, the Internet has its own way of deliver things!
This morning, I woke up and my friend told me that a famous Korean actress has passed from suicide. I cannot neither respond or comprehend the news. Dying is much more simple and painless than surviving!
Here I am, three years — which is 1095 days after that first Tarceva pill, I am still fighting with pains every night, and wake up every morning, and give it my very best!
Was it lonely sometimes on this journey? Absolutely!
Was that depressing when I receive a bad news? Absolutely! In fact, they found three new small tumors in my lung two weeks ago. So, here it is, another start, another journey!
-Los Angeles, Oct 14th 2019-