HEALING
A Letter to My Younger Selves
To all we were, are, and will be.
The journaling exercises presented in The Garden of Neuro have me digging deep.
The exercises vary from writing a letter of thanks to your younger self, to being specific and writing a letter to yourself at a specific age.
It’s hard for me to pick one of those selves I’ve been. Understanding now how life is the sum of our choices, from where I sit, I’d have to say I’m, … struggling with a past I cannot change.
It’s also hard to think about writing a letter of thanks when I feel any message I could send should be big red flags waving warnings.
I cannot go back to my five-year-old self who was terrified to ‘go to grandma’s’ because it meant fighting off a drunk relative from molesting me.
I cannot go back to the moment when I told my mother I wanted to go to college and she responded first with ‘there’s nothing wrong with getting married and having babies,’ and second with, “I’m not going to pay for it.”
