How hard the Surgery Struggle is!
Knowing years in advance you are destined to get surgery that will forever change your life. You have dreams of this surgery that will change your life to the point of obsession. The desire, the need, the pleasure that will bring you to finally not have to worry again and finally feel as if you are complete. You know in your heart this is what you need, this is the most essential part of your life but the wait, the struggle, the misery of the delay is often so much, maybe more than someone could process.
The thing is no matter how long, or how hard things will be you know that nothing in the world could change your mind about getting “Gender Confirmation Surgery”. — (Known as SRS, GCS, GRS) — You work night and day to accomplish all the procedures that you need to qualify for this surgery and each time you think you have something completed, something else comes up and makes things harder or unforeseen financial expense.
So anyone who is in my financial struggle knows exactly what it is like to attempt to accomplish this. The burden of this is like planning to buy a new car in many ways. Fortunately, I was lucky enough to have my insurance company cover the $28,000 surgery. But wait the expense doesn’t stop there. While my insurance company is paying for the surgery they tend to leave out the fact that I am responsible for travel back and forth to the hospital, which in my case is out of state, 749 miles away from me.
Here is the problem, I have had to book a hotel and plan for travel, more than likely using public Ubers or Lifts. While Air B&Bs are available, in such a critical time, I can not run into any complications that some Air B&Bs have presented.
The thought of everything going as planned is a dream but of course, it is not that way for me. My surgery is supposed to be in November, but — I still have yet to receive a date —. I was just informed that I need a pre-visit a month in advance before surgery which also is where I pick up my prescriptions for my surgery medication. I also need to arrive 2 to 3 days ahead of the surgery date for covid testing directly at the Hospital.
Honestly, I have everything prepared for the original time to be up there but out of the blue now I have to rearrange my expenses and choose to pay the — “Rent or to pay for the extra expense of travel” — up to the location and back again. Additional 3 days in the city for my surgery, and I am completely unsure of how to accomplish this extra major expense. Nearly another $500 plus that I now need to find.
I honestly don’t know how I will manage this and take care of everything, I am already pushed to the limits of my expenses on my income. I can only push so far before everything comes crashing down around me. This surgery is my life and without it, — “I will hurt more than losing nearly anything else” — in my life.
The question is, at what point is too much?
I choose to leave out my hospital of choice at the current time because of private reasons. However, after I complete my transition I will then release more information about the facility I chose.
This is my struggle right now, limited by time and restraints of income. I don’t know what I will do about getting this completed without finding some help or something amazing to accomplish this extra expense. Perhaps I guess that's why here I write for everyone else to see and help those who have similar problems.
— “Maybe” — everything will work out, I honestly don’t know what I would do if I have to wait any longer, this burden is so hard to live with when you feel incomplete. So for now I will keep trying to make things work and make prayers that somehow things will work out for the best.
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