One Year of Hormone Replacement Therapy

Hana Mohan
Sep 24, 2017 · 6 min read
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Taking the blue pill instead!

Today I completed one year of Hormone Replacement Therapy or HRT as it’s popularly known. There is HRT for post-menopause women as well but that’s not what I am talking about. I am talking about the HRT for trans people. Basically replace Testosterone in your body with Estrogen, if you are a male to female transgender or Estrogen with Testosterone if you are a female to make transgender. I wanna share some of my thoughts, moments and feelings as I have gone on this journey in the last one year. And it is definitely a journey as I am still seeing many changes even after a year and I hope to see many more in the next few years.

What is HRT

If they do decide to continue, Trans women have to take estrogen their whole life since they don’t have ovaries and so their bodies can’t produce enough estrogen. They can stop the testosterone blocker if they ever have the full sex reassignment surgery or an orchiectomy.

Long term estrogen is pretty safe. The blocker usually has unpleasant side effects so it’s generally a good idea to get off it if you can.

HRT is the litmus test for being trans

The challenges with HRT

Emotionally it is a challenging ride too. Once you start to see and accept yourself as a woman a lot of your priorities in life change. You start valuing different things and find yourself in a life built for someone else and many aspects of it are suddenly very disturbing. As a kid, I had a lot of acne and I never took care of them. They left their marks on my face (trans people call such effects testosterone poisoning) but I didn’t really worry about it. That is until I started transitioning. Suddenly my perspective changed and I got a lot more conscious of their presence. It’s like being a teenage girl with the body and life of an adult man. It’s quite a mentally challenging (and probably funny) situation to be in.

HRT and Emotions

I also find my bonds of attachment to my friends and family a lot stronger than before. I think I always appreciated these relationships but now they feel a lot stronger and deeper. I am able to cherish them a lot more.

HRT and Sexuality

One year of HRT has helped me get to the point where I can see myself as a woman most of the time. I still struggle but not as much as I did earlier. I guess in many ways I struggle like a lot of other women struggle in accepting themselves. A lot of it comes from society’s idea of what it is to be an attractive or a successful woman. I’ll write more about it in another post. In the meantime, if you are questioning your gender, definitely talk to a therapist and try out HRT for a few months. Don’t keep struggling.

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