Live In My Dreams
March 5th-6th
If “the future already exists” as I persist,
maybe I am the one showing myself these images,
Realizations that reinforce that fact..
that saving the world is impossible,
Or maybe it’s you, showing up in my dreams..
Causing me to dig deeper and reawaken lost parts of me,
maybe both have some truth..
You first appeared as you were when you were sick,
Your health had gotten worse as the dream went on,
Triggering some frustration in me,
My thoughts of going back in time to fix what was wrong,
This reminded me that even if time travel were possible, the result would’ve been the same..
In the next, we talked about what I’d learned from the previous dream,
You appeared as you were in my youth,
Shirtless, strong,
Though your back was faced to me,
I wondered what it could mean..
I hardly subscribe to the idea of destiny,
But if the future already exists, there was nothing that I could’ve done to prevent what has become,
Accepting it, appreciating the experience with you for what it was,
cherishing the memory for the remainder of my time here,
is what I’d grasped as I searched for the meaning..
After the first dream, I realized that I needed to fully make peace,
rather than subconsciously dwell on what could’ve been,
because although I am strong, maybe I am just as powerless,
Maybe having that conversation with you was to pave the way..
Though, I hope to see you again soon,
to talk,
in my dreams,
Where you are close, but so far away,
But in the event that I don’t happen to see you again,
I know that you’re with me still..
