Body Images
You might have noticed I’ve started writing little erotic poems. I’m collecting them in my vanity publication ‘Unsolicited Bloggings’ — even though they are not blogs — under the header Little Love Letters.
I didn’t exactly set out to write poems, but when I try to describe a desire without setting and context, what comes out looks very much like a poem. So I ran with that. I think it’s what they call “one line poems”, since those can be written on multiple lines. It took me a while to figure that one out. They probably should be called “one thought poems”, but what do I know, I’m not a poet — I just play one on Medium.
I decided to write erotica for NaNoWriMo this year. It’s not always easy. Often enough my mind runs away from me when I’m writing erotica. I’ll sit enjoying my fantasy and completely forget the point is to write out the images in words. The Little Love Letters is a way for me to train myself to write things that turn me on. To get the image out of my head and onto the page. Preferably in a timely fashion, because soon I am going to have to get 1666 words a day, and I’m not quitting my job to do it. You can expect them to grow a bit more explicit as time goes on. I’m aiming to do at least a couple of these a week.
The reason a couple of lines, adding up to not even a minute reading time, can stand in for over fifteen hundred words, is pretty simple. There’s no fiction in Little Love Letters. That automatically raises the likelihood of me dreaming away. It’s all my very own, very real desires. As such they are all about, and inspired by, my man.
Like I said, I have a specific image in mind while writing. And I want an picture that at least approximates this mental image to go with the poems. I could publish them without picture, but then they would show up with this ugly green on white grind Medium decided to use as a placeholder. I find it bad enough if this happens with responses. But an original writing of mine is not going to be published without a picture.
And here I’m running into a bit of trouble. Finding the right image is a lot harder than I imagined it would be. Twice I got around it by distorting a “close enough” picture with some filters. For my last one I had, what I thought was a pretty simple request. Water drops on the skin of an obviously masculine body.
Not all that simple.
Oh there’s plenty of water drop on skin pictures — all obviously female. Big breasts, little breasts, flat tummies with hips, curvy tummies with hips. But I didn’t want feminine.
Leaving the free picture sites and going directly to Google did not improve matters all that much (Also, the words “erotic male” are Google code for leather, latex and rubber wearables for men. Or maybe that’s just my Google? Nice, but not what I asked for.) After quite some searching and multiple “see more” links, I finally found this picture from Printrest:
Which falls squarely in the “close enough” category. It’s masculine. It’s got water. It has that isolated, without setting feel I am going for. The picture has good composition and all that.
The problem is I’m not a huge fan of the hairless, sculpted abs. I’m even less of a fan of big pecks. I don’t like what the kids call ripped bodies. I can appreciate the time and effort that goes into achieving a body like that. I just don’t think it’s hot. This is not the sort of body that inspired the poems.
It’s not that I dislike muscles — of course I like strong men. But these men don’t look all that strong to me. They look like they could snap in half. To be completely honest, I think that really broad shoulders and really small waists tend to make men look like Disney villains. Caricatures.
For those that are curious by now, this is the body that inspired my Little Love Letters; my perfect combination of soft and strong.
I’m not even seeing through rose colored glasses. It’s true I love him for much more than his body, but my lovers all had similar builds. This is my type. (And it looks killer in a suit)
I know I am not the only woman really into this. (And I know that if you happen to be into more chubby men, you run into the same problem.) But you would never know this from Google images. As soon as you search for male nudes, the overwhelming majority of pictures, specially nicely composed professional pictures, are sculpted, funnel shaped men.
I just feel like I shouldn’t have to search though porn sites to find other body types. There’s a big difference between a nude picture and a pornographic picture. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy pornographic pictures. But I feel a pornographic picture would distract too much from the story. And they tend to not focus on details like water drops on skin (I looked).
So I suppose this is a request for the gents who don’t look like Gaston to please, consider posing for some nice nude pictures and upload those to the free image sites like Pixabay. People like me would appreciate it.
