From First Year to Having an Interesting Summer…

To start off, after all my exams finished in my winter term, I had an off term. So you may think that I can just chill, have lots of fun & not have any stress. Unfortunately this was not always the case & I will explain why.

It started off with my mother having cataract surgeries for both eyes. Due to this reason, I could not start looking for a summer job because I had to help with house chores. At that moment, I was never angry or hesitant with the fact that I had to help with house chores as my mom is trying to recover from surgery & my father is always at work. However, after 1 month of doing the same routine, I started getting impatient because my brother went from being cooperative to uncooperative, causing my impatience to slowly arise. Then, I started asking my mother.

“How long do I have to help you with the housechores?”

“At least for another 2 months so that I can fully recover,” my mother replied.

“Wait, then do I actually have to do this for another 2 months?” I asked.

“It is most preferred to as it stated for 6 weeks,” my mother stated. However, when I tried searching up how long it should take, I saw that if nothing happens to you, it should take 1 month of recovery. That is the reason that I started arguing because if there is no reason for me to actually do it, I would rather spend my time more wisely on other things, such as finding volunteer experience or a summer job. I could have just been trying to find another job this entire time but instead I did not due to unconditional love. So I questioned if my mother appreciated what I did from the time I came back from University to midway of June. And just saying thank you does not really mean anything in my eyes because anybody can just say thank you but does she request me to do things with the heart or by the typical autocratic way? Even until today, I still questioned it but I cannot do anything about it because this is God’s will & not my will to be able to determine it.

Another Godly moment that has happened to me was during my Church mission trip called REMIX. All of a sudden, I get a message from my parents saying that my brother is at Sick Kids Hospital. I was pretty surprised not just because he has a life threatening illness, called epilepsy, but it also happened on one of my friend (that is a girl) birthday. At that moment, I couldn’t tell whether the girl liked me or not but because she isolated me from her group of friends, I was thinking why not give it a try. Of course I asked & it turns out to be false alarm. I was just shocked not because she rejected but because for some reasons, her birthday coincided with the day that my brother was fighting for his life. Why would God place this scenario in my hands? I honestly did not know the answer to this question at first but as time flew by, I realized that I need someone to be part of my life so that my faith & my mental health does not decline dramatically (Yes, I need Jesus to be part of my life but what I am looking for in specific is God working through someone else’s life to impact my life). I don’t know who it is & I don’t want to think of who it is but one thing for sure is if any extenuating circumstances occur, there will be a time where I will turn away from God & it will not look good. So I don’t want you all to start thinking that I am trying to get into a relationship but yeah this is something that is on my mind right now.

The final thing that has happened over the summer is when my bank account got hacked. Because I have told this story multiple times, I will not state the details but if you never heard of it or you forgot about it, just ask me at CCF, at Frosh Cell or even on Campus & I will try my best to answer it!

As 2A hits, I pray that each & every one of you will continue to encourage each other up & study for God’s kingdom. I also pray that each & every one of you will continue to keep each other accountable & fellowship with one another no matter how busy University gets. Honestly, co-op is just something that is getting on my nerves and is something that I need prayers for because it is turning me away from God. So yeah hope something speaks to you & have a great fall 2019!