Ode to a Broken Heart

for Toffee

Jayz Paloma
Apr 7 · 2 min read
(PHOTO | JAY-AR PALOMA)

I love you in sickness
holding hands that are too hot
too cold

Sleepless nights, awakened by
a symphony of coughs
listless moans caused by stomach in knots
Hyperacidity in overdrive

Yet you are still beautiful, my dear
with your fevered brow and
the cracked skin on your lips,
rough against mine

Your body, twice I can wrap my
arm around, feeling all fragile bones,
as strong as they are brittle
I hold you against me as you shiver

Because the air might be too hot
Or too cold
Your heart cannot tell the difference anymore;
And all that stands between us and goodbye
are a cocktail of pills you swallow in silence

Love is to watch someone die, one measly bard sang
And here I am to watch you
To love you
My dear
until pain is no more

Jay-ar Paloma is an HR executive by day and a frustrated artist by night. He has extensive background in campus journalism as an editor-in-chief in elementary and high school as well as a contributor in his college days in UP Diliman. Currently the Associate Editor at Vox Populi PH, he likes to read and write fiction and opinion pieces relating to LGBTQ, social media, and culture. When not engrossed in a book, he is probably playing a tune on his guitar or keyboard. Leave your love notes to Jay-ar here: jr@voxpopuliph.com.

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Wonderfully weird 美 HR guy. Musician. Writer. https://tinyurl.com/y9hnfsw4

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Vox Populi PH is led by an organization of young writers who want to create new, critical spaces for literature, analysis, and community journalism for readers of all ages in the Philippines.