If I Could Change My Heart
For the last 25 years of my entire life, I have been constantly introspecting myself in every aspect, as much as possible. Fortunately, I am satisfy about most of my personality and essence. However, there is one thing that I would like to change if is possible.
Whenever I fall in love, usually not with someone, but an one-sided love, I will go very deep into my heart. In other words, I let my feelings out like a flood discharge. It happened once many years ago, when I had a crush on a lovely girl who belonged to someone else. During that time, I had to restrain my feeling by drinking, even when the sun was still out, and it was totally a nightmare. I did so many things and gave out so much for her, even though I perfectly knew that I didn’t stand a chance. In fact, most of the time in my life, I can proudly say that almost nothing can hurt my strong beating heart. But when it comes to true romance, dear lord, I can only prey for your aid.
Some friends told me that to dramatically show my true heart is actually one of my biggest merit, I disagree. It is painful to love someone who doesn’t love you back. Therefore, if I ever have an opportunity to change one thing about myself, I will ask for a colder heart. I don’t want to be a cruel person, but a cooler one will do.


