How have you been?
Do you ever think that maybe, you aren’t who you really are?
You know, like you know who you are, but the second you get out, you become the husk of the man you actually are. Who you are is, who you are within? or the action of the person you are? Anyway you hide it. Is it out of fear? A defense mechanism? You be the judge.
Are you like me right now? A lot more confident, because you got a break, and used it to build Faith in the King?
Do you like writing to yourself? Talking even, in dialogue? This might be a soliloquy book!
Do you feel, like you can’t love anymore? Like, literally can’t, like you’ve lost the function, like loss of muscle function to stand up? Been there, not too long ago.
Do you feel inexplainable peace looking at the sky? You know? If you lie down? It’s the widest view ever, even wider than your problems, maybe that’s how heaven is, makes sense though, in Hebrew the kingdom of heaven can be read as the Kingdom of the skies. I love the sky.
Do you envision yourself as a knight? Standing tall on the clouds, decorating the blue yonder. With a blue robe and battle-ready armor, and a comically large sword? A hopeful smirk, because you know who’s armor you are wearing. Haha. Me too, that’s how we all should be.
Do you ever look at your ‘eccentric’ self, and mock him for not being ‘normal’? Have you stopped doing that? Yeah. Yeah.
Have you realized that ‘loving yourself’ and being happy with who you are, just the way you are, might be narcissism? Have you realized that being critical with yourself, is cruel?
Yeah.
“Hey, how bout, you and I wash the dishes? Then we can get coffee together.” Have you tried saying that to yourself?
Have you tried reading books you like? Yeah, I like them now.
Do you hang out with people who have your best interests?
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Now, something I really realized lately, that I think might describe where I’m at right now:
Do you thirst so much, that nothing on this world satisfies you anymore?
Yeah.
Are you unaffected, even to a small degree, if you lose everything you have?
Yeah.
Do you know who you thirst for?
Are you sure its what you truly should thirst for?
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Yes, you, think about it, and join in, let’s talk for a bit, before the sun settles.
