Undo
Vexed
This is what it feels like
The macabre, gruesome, horrifying and most unsuitable (11)
Scrape-scratch
Rake with your nails
Over my eyeballs
Clawing at the itch
Bloody furrows in my skin
The incessant ringing
In my ears gradual blindness
Scratch-scrape
Raking leaves into little piles
I’ll take your rake
And stuff it up your anus
Turn the handle
Stop irritating me
Thorny little leaves
Trailing over your skin gently
Leaving in its wake a
Severe burning sensation
Rasp grate grind jar
This is what it feels like
I want you to feel it too
Let’s share
The words come slower
And then faster
Then all jumbled-up
Pictures too
Of you in my dreams
What does it all mean?
Enlighten me
I’ll teach you a lesson
The same way
You taught me
Be still
It never goes away
Score mark line
I can’t relax calm down
There are too many guilty
I have to stop this
Tortured screaming in my head
Falsetto Alto
No rhythm nor rhyme
Just a maddening screech
I need quiet
I need to think
He said he won’t
Give me more
Than I can handle
He lied
It is too much
I didn’t choose this
It chose me
Even if everything was perfect
I would still be the same
Preconceived prefigured
Nature or nurture or
I chose and I changed my DNA
Rebooted the cells
Neurolingual pathways fire away
Short-circuits in my brain
Cold sweat cramp
Breathe deeply in and out
With my head on your chest
My hand cradling you
I need them to be quiet now
While I work
Practice makes perfect
Groove gash gouge
I was never into killing
But more into torture
Personal Note:
Occasionally I need to peace out and have complete quiet. If someone breathes too loudly next to me, it can send me over the edge. I know now what is appropriate behaviour and what not, how I should act…. I need to balance it all out, otherwise my tenuous grasp on sanity slips. Darkness and solitude is the only thing that keeps it real.
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