Undo
Why Not Me?
Don’t give up on us
The macabre, gruesome, horrifying and most unsuitable (13)
A slight smile
Curling around the edges
Shake of the head
To douse the flame
Nod nose twitch
Nervous tic
You are not really here
Not enough
Not for long enough
To breathe me in
Burn
Tic tic
Stay still while I watch you
Drink you in
Relax
While I untie the knots
Don’t move please stay
At least for a little while
Then maybe I will
Let you go
Stay calm
Close your eyes
While I touch you gently
We want you
To remember
To stop being
So absent-minded
To not be afraid of anything
There is nothing
To worry about
I am here
To stop the burning
I don’t feel too good
Right now
I’m doing the best I can
I will make you remember
While I play
My games
Why not me?
I can be like her
Put a blonde wig on
Croon love songs to you
Look into my eyes
And tell me what you see
I am right here
Where I am
What now?
Don’t give up on us
On me
Remember the dream
Fantasies of the seemingly impossible
I always wanted it all
No compromise
You should stop now
Stop apologizing
Screaming struggling
The knots are only getting tighter
I can’t be different enough
So that you can feel better
For very long
What was her name?
Did you say it
With your last breath
Or did it die
In your throat
All burnt up
It was you
It never was me
Personal Note:
I try to limit my darker fantasies as I run the risk of getting caught up in them, falling in the rabbit hole with no easy way out. When I have been good for a while I may reward myself with a couple of daydreams.
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