Day 7- Something Stolen from Me
Seeing the topic at the first sight, I wondered what it would be. In less than 3 seconds, the answer came up in my mind: confidence.
I have been really depressed these days since I failed to get the admission to the graduate school in South Korea. I felt guilty for myself because I seemed not to work hard enough. I felt guilty for my teachers because they helped writing reference letters but I didn’t even pass the paper assessment. I felt guilty for my mother because I stayed home and spent her money (though I still do translation by case.)
I felt like I didn’t know the person in the mirror since she is strange to me. Lack of energy, confidence, and smile.
“I used to be in the first place! All my classmates in college got the admission when they first applied to the school they want. Why couldn’t I make it?” I yelled in my mind.
Where is my confidence? Who has stolen it?
I have no idea.
But after calming down for a weekend, re-scheduling my plane ticket, extending the trip I plan to stay in Seoul, I seemed to be able to think. I realized that for such a long time, I have been comparing myself with others, which made my mother angry and made me unhappy all the times. If I stop doing this and lead my own life, maybe I will find my own confidence and my life back. I hope I can do it through writing every day. So wait for it!
The “Wendy’s 642 Things to Write About “ project is a self writing plan based on 642 Things to Write About by the San Francisco Writers’ Grotto. I may have paused for few days but I will do it every day from now on. If you are interested in this series, please clap or leave a comment. All the articles in this project is free. But if you want to read my own perspective or stories in my country, Taiwan, here are the latest ones: Why do Chinese Have Two Names? & The Difficulties of Being a Taiwanese in 21th
