Moments
How joy and pain are really the same
Life comes in waves —
Waves of moments.
Moments so extreme they can knock me over.
One moment I feel hopeless, helpless, despair…
These moments tend to follow extreme waves of hope and wishes — lots of fishes — to grow and succeed and
keep going and growing and
never stop.
And then I fall.
Plunge off the ladder’s highest rung
and I bruise pretty bad and it stings
like a jellyfish bite.
I thought I could conquer the world.
Now I want to die?
I escalate. I don’t reach a middle ground
only both ends of the endless of spectrums
always reaching seeking falling hurting dying
oh for god’s sake, I keep trying —
to figure things out to answer the questions
like which shoes match best? and is dating for losers?
How long will THIS moment last?
Do I want it to stay or to falter?
These waves they keep splashing
as I vacillate on.