This past weekend I jumped. Literally.
I was back at Hell Island for the long weekend and we decided to do some cliff diving. I want to preface this story by telling you I am terrified of heights. Always haven been. So of course I declared ahead of time that I would remain a happy bystander throughout this activity. That was until we got to the cliffs.
Maybe it was the sunlight or the calmness of the water. Maybe it was the excitement of being with my closest friends on a care free Saturday afternoon. All I know was that from the boat, the cliffs didn’t seem all that menacing. Definitely do able.
So in a spur of the moment decision, I decided to abandon the safety of the boat and climb up the cliff side. I was buzzing with anticipation and excitement. I could do this. I could totally do this.
Then I got to the top and the fear sunk in. I looked down and my stomach dropped. What the hell did I get myself into? I hate heights, why would I ever even consider this? Yet among all the feelings of dread, I was still excited. Take a deep breath, count to three and jump.
Take a deep breath, count to three and jump.
And that’s just what I did. Well, it took a little more coaxing than that. After about 20 minutes and countless cheers, I sucked it up and jumped. Did I love it? No. Was I happy I did it? Absolutely.
I find the feelings I had in this moment extremely potent to my post grad life. I’m the most scared I’ve ever been. I have no plan. The job hunt sucks. I constantly feel inadequate compared to all the other applicants out there. I literally freeze in fear every time I send out my resume.
But I can’t let fear stop me. Just like at the cliff, I know I can do this. I know deep down that someone, somewhere will think I’m a valuable addition to their company. That I can get the job done. I just need to take a leap of faith. Believe in myself enough to take the first step. Trust that everything will be ok.
We all need to face our fears head on. If we are constantly hiding from things that make us uncomfortable, we will never grow. Life is about stepping outside our comfort zone and trying new things. So next time you are petrified by a new experience, just do what I did. Breathe in, count to three and jump.