You know how they say the only constant is change?
Well, I must admit I’ve changed my mind about my Memoir.
I’ve written often about how we have the right to change our minds about stuff. I realized that I’ve shifted my beliefs about my Memoir.
Funny, but a few months ago when I had the idea of this publication I was in a totally different mind space and head space. Now, I admit my feelings have changed.
Here are a few things I’ve changed my mind about writing my Memoir:
- I thought I had to write it. Now I’m not sure I do.
- I thought it would help me get closure if I wrote it, but now I think I might be able to have closure even if I don’t.
- I thought it was sooo damn important in my life to put my story down on paper — to tell my deep daunting survival story. Now I’m questioning that idea.
- I thought I had a damn riveting story to tell, because I lived though so much shit and SURVIVED it. I thought it was somehow my duty (?) to TELL IT. Now I am rethinking that point.
- I thought I had to get it all UP and OUT of me, like an Exorcism. Now I think I can do that in other ways —maybe it’s not necessary to write the Memoir.
- Maybe I have too much unresolved family shit in my life and it would be best to put it off (yet again!)
- Maybe I’ll write it later when family members are gone?
- Maybe I’ll write more than one Memoir and it won’t necessarily be the one BIG daunting one I was originally thinking?
- Maybe I don’t want to relive the painful shit after all!
- Maybe I’ll never write it.
- Maybe all of this is ok. Being in the state of UNCERTAINTY might be just fine.
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