Right person, Wrong time.

Have you ever met a person that fit the description? The description of what you want in a person? Or maybe this is someone that makes your description. Regardless, this is someone that is essentially right for you. They make you feel happy, warmth rushes through your face, and you look down because if you look up it’s like looking at the sun – if you stare for too long it’s just too much. Well I have had the sun light in my life here and there but circumstance got in the way.

Imagination runs wild – it’s the little things. Holding hands on the beach as the sun sets, driving aimlessly, dancing in the moonlight, and so many more things. As much as the imagination seems great, when reality hits it’s just heartbreak in some cases. You don’t get the aimless drive or hand to hold, you are just stuck with your thoughts. I guess that’s why I’ve become the “mysterious’ and quiet kind when it comes to liking someone.

There’s the someone that is taken. It’s human nature to want what we can’t have. You look at this person and are attracted to them but you don’t know if they are single. You start to like them and then they say the words that sting – “my wife, husband, girlfriend, or boyfriend” Does that stop you from liking them? How could it? You can’t help how you feel and you can’t just shut off your feelings right away. With time, like most pain, you learn to live with it. It stings and it almost makes you want them more but you don’t pursue it because you’re a good person, well hopefully so.

There’s the someone that is your friend. You can’t tell them how you feel because you could ruin a friendship. Sometimes a friendship is so much more important than trying love. I guess it depends.

I’m going to be 100% honest here. If I like someone, I don’t tell anyone anymore. It’s not like I don’t want to because believe me I want it to come true but some things are better left unsaid. Some things shouldn’t be ruined – friendships, other relationships, etc. Not just that, some things are just better left in your head. I am content being lost in my own thoughts/imagination. It’s not healthy, I don’t recommend it, and I think you should express your feelings. I guess you can say I’m scared – I hope someone can relate to this!

Until I find the person or am put in a situation to tell someone I like my honest feelings, I will stay quiet. Up until now, I haven’t been able to say anything because of circumstance. Circumstances have prevented my feelings from being true and I hope you all get your happily ever after.

May the odds ever be in my favor to speak my mind one day. Until then.