Visitors
A Poem Soothing Negative Thoughts During Tough Times
Visitors
Here we go again,
Forcing a smile again
Forgot to close the gate again
A gate whose password I reset
Over and over again
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Feeble attempts of change
Get stuck between the lines
Of uninvited guests, who
Creep their way inside
My mind…
Chamber of light
*
Chamber of darkness
Whose light is dim
Flickering between thoughts
Of hope and despair
“Help” is but a whisper, yet
Smacks against nothingness
Now, I feel…
Broken beyond repair
*
Trying to change the show
Laughing in the mirror
Perhaps these thoughts go
If only my smile got wider
Bigger.
Like I mean it. “Try harder”
Always harder
Perhaps faster
For recovery takes time
And time is my currency
Their asset, if they overstay
*
What’s next?
Questions of “why” fill my head
Why now, why me, why here
Disheartened by my own fear
Always looking for “better”
Settling for ‘good’? never
Falling in love with the pressure
Sometimes, hating each other
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Here I go again
Forcing a smile again
Welcoming my visitors again
Changing my show again
Over and over again
Resistent no more, gently
Letting them go again
-Imane Ben
