An Unfilled Wish, Restless Ashes, Love and Forgiveness
How to find love, peace and forgiveness
Unfulfilled wishes, restless ashes, guilt.
I am so sorry.
Please forgive me.
I could not fulfil your dying wish.
When does grieving cross the line from being excusable to disrespecting the dead? By disregarding your dying wish, they showed a complete lack of respect.
Absurd arguments. It didn’t matter what I said. Their reactions were predictably irritating, finding fault, relentless criticism and endless questioning.
Drama distractions. Because I chose self-peace over appeasing them.
Exhausted, I left guilt behind, closing the door on them.
They resented that I was no longer willing to ignore the issues, just to keep the peace.
Family estranged, bloodlines bleeding, transition underway.
I feel pain
sore, shoulders, rib cage, back,
as if my wings clipped
I want to fly but my wings don’t work here,
feel that dove you saw,
can feel it flying the message.
— Claire…
