RUDE AWAKENING

It’ll Be Okay

For 40 years, I’ve wandered in the desert of Doubt — was my mystical experience real?

Jenine Bsharah Baines
Write Under the Moon
2 min readSep 5, 2024

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Photo by Towfiqu barbhuiya on Unsplash

I wish I could uncover the remote –
how quickly I would hit rewind

For I could use
a weird and reverent boost today

A vaccination
bolstering my resistance
to the common, cold banality of doubt

A strengthening shot
of affirmation

That sudden channel-change
in the twee hours of the morning
was no mere dream
I should have put to rest
decades ago

In truth, remembrance’s reel
is so very real

Plot quickening, thickening
Every anxiety, complaint, compulsion
evaporating
in an unforeseen shower of light
scented like the first true day of spring
Dark past and fogged future
burning off
Ego’s illusions
squeegeed for a clearer view

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Jenine Bsharah Baines
Write Under the Moon

J…Jen…Jeni…Jenine... Proper names are poetry in the raw. (W.H. Auden) Poet, singer, seeker, hippie grandmother gleefully revealing herself