The ridiculously good side of not knowing
Just strip down that expert badge. It scrapes away your freedom.
I assume this phrase crossed everyone’s mind once in a while — We all wanted to become the expert at some endeavors. Seriously, more than that, no one ever consider whatever it takes to get there.
Like swimming across the ocean, having the strength alone itself is not enough, your mind and body will have to be harmonized in an orchestrated way. If your mind cannot have the clear picture of your destination, then your body will not be able to bring the same desired result as to do so.
What never cease to amaze me about the human mind is once that we soak up that title, we must have known everything associated with it to do a good job?
Ideal examples:
- You must have known everything when you are a blogger.
- You must have known everything when you are a manager.
- You must have known everything when you are an accountant.
There could be a million ways to access this purely wrong hypothesis. There will be no frigging way that I can know everything about the job. Let alone doing it well in the long-term game.
It is just the beginning, the first step of many, maybe 1 out of 10000 steps before I can truly understand what it feels like to get that real title.
When you grant that title to yourself. Or, when the company you worked for entitle you with that promotion. You feel good, you feel great about it.
Often in times, you also feel unknown to the limitless possibilities that happen with that entitlement.
Even to me, to some extents:
- I feel nothing special if I used to be a Customer Service Specialist.
- I feel nothing special if I called myself a Writer/ Blogger.
- I feel nothing special about those fancy names but yet meaningless.
It is just the matter of dwelling in the unknown abyss long too much that everything becomes timeless.
How about this?
Maybe all you ever have to do by the confrontation of fear is to say #IWILL.
Affirm this phrase remove the constant paradox that have been haunting your mind. You just need to take that very first step to begin the journey.
How about the unknown?
The rest will unfold on its way.
- The first time ever when I worked in Customer Service, I was clueless.
How do people react? What if my voice is stuttering? How do I solve the complex problem?
- The first time ever when I wrote the first blog spot, I was clueless.
What if my article sucks? What if I got no attention? What if no one ever read it?
- The first time ever when I grabbed that basketball and shoot from 3 points range, I was clueless.
What if the ball didn’t go in? What if the ball hits the rim? Is the 3 points line too far for my reach?
These are nothing short but your self-doubts. We all have it; I have it, too.
Having self-doubt is good, only for a momentarily while. Until you get choked by its feeling, its hindrance. It was nothing but a mirage that stop you from exploring the world.
That’s why I feel bad for the folks who was held back by limiting beliefs, by Imposter Syndrome.
They could be a warning sign to command you to stay where you are or else you will meet risks and danger.
I said, screw it, let’s put the arrow sign on and move yourself toward the dream land.
The cost of diving into the unknown?
It’s nothing else but happiness, sheer joy and excitement.
Maybe, I should give thanks to our ancestor’s mechanic brain to help us stay in the safety zone, to be risk-averse, to escape the predator and all else.
Maybe not, this is just the old way of living, getting inside the safety net may give you a good pump of feeling for a while, until it feel that you totally suck in life.
Stepping out of the well and make the giant leap of faith becomes the obvious choice.
Mountain of regrets.
I admit it. I have seen folks who piled up regrets after regrets that the only thing showing on their face is pure sadness.
They could have been capable of doing more, they did know about that. I know about that, too. The sheer force of fear, self-doubts stopped them from that pursuit of doing more, breaking out of the shell.
I feel bad for that.
But I won’t step in their game to change them.
It’s hard to move the mountain alone by yourself. I learnt that I should learn how to move my mountain first.
