Mental Health
Trying to Understand My Anxiety
Easy in hindsight, but not to be overlooked.
I don’t know when my anxiety started.
I remember the attacks I had, and when things worsened, but it’s hard to pinpoint anxiety back to one day or one thing.
It’s also hard to pinpoint my past experiences pf agoraphobia back to one place or one thing.
During the pandemic, I barely got out. When we stay inside for so long, it’s inevitable that when we get back out there, things will be different.
I started checking my surroundings more and worrying about things that probably wouldn’t have crossed my mind before the pandemic.
I started washing my hands excessively, shaking randomly in everyday situations, feeling nervous when nothing was going on, and was afraid to show my face or use my voice in both online and in-person scenarios.
I got these thoughts in my head that were just generally negative. Things you wouldn’t think about if you were a normal person, I thought.
I started worrying about being in public spaces, crowds, and often found myself planning an escape route when I felt uncomfortable in those spaces. I was ready to jump out of a classroom window, or turn a corner and sprint, but…
