No One Knows This About Me — I Have OCD And Hate Odd Numbers
So it all began when I was younger, most people have a fear of heights or insects such as spiders or Bees but mine was different.
I realised that my mind was not the average mind I would often analyse things in great depth. Things such as making sure that my Abacus(used to teach children to count) had a pretty pattern displayed on it at all times. If anyone ever messed up the pattern I would be so annoyed.I would also think of the most bizarre things ever. To be honest I believe that my OCD occurred when my mother would buy herself my brother and I our own Cups and plates. I was so proud to have something that was my own and that only I could use, however this was just the start and would lead to disastrous consequences.
When my mother would take me out to my Aunties house I would always want my cup and plate from home otherwise I would not eat my food. This became an issue when I would go to restaurants and became an ongoing battle. My mother refused to bring my plate everywhere we went and told me “Keisha you have to learn to stop being so fussy you are being ridiculous”. No one knew, no one understood that it was much more than having my own fancy cup and plate but the issue was, that I felt using other plates that were not mine had germs and bacteria. It started to become such a big thing where I was super picky. OCD still affects me to this day but not as much I have learnt to deal with it and created certain measures.
Some of the measures include:
- Making sure to use disposable cups or making sure not to finish the drink completely.
2. Making sure to use tissue when flushing and opening the toilet door
3. Making sure to carry hand Sanitiser
4. Carrying anti bacterial wipes to wipe down the Computer Keyboard at University or just simply washing my hands after using the computer.
I am forever washing my hands I wash my hands at least fifteenth times a day. When i wash my hands there is a certain procedure I make sure to was them twice. The first wash is to make sure that the top layer of dirt is removed. Then the second wash is to make sure it is extra clean. This is done so that I feel better about myself and to rid of any remaining germs. Which leads on to being very picky with the food that i eat if the restaurant has less than a 4 star hygiene rating I would never in a million years consume food from that place.
Another problem that was developed when i was younger also was the fact that I hated Odd numbers. I still hate Odd numbers till this day small things such as making sure that the volume of the television is on 22 instead of 23 even seeing the number 23 irritates me there it is again. Just knowing that this number can not be divided equally so that you get a whole number is extremely frustrating. There are things that I think of in the future such as if i was to purchase a home and the house was immaculate but the door number was 13 would I still live there?
OCD always seemed to be a problem for me when I was little I believe as the years have gone on these disorders have got better and I have found ways around things. Many may believe that this is so stupid but this was something that was installed in me from when i was young. There are other cases where people have fears of Clowns or fruit which I particularly find very amusing and stupid. However who am I to tell people what can be deemed as stupid and what is normal. I also do not like things in disarray I always tell people if you wish to use my things put them back afterwards exactly where you got it from.
