Chapter one, two or more “CLOSED”
So, during my attempt to write another blog about inspiration. I started to throw in a few ‘F’ bombs here and there, but replaced these with a smiley face! The reason, it just seemed too angry and harsh, so by replacing it with a smiley face, just added a little humour to it instead.
It’s been far too long since my last blog. Was it laziness? Was it writers block? Was it lack of time??? Nope none of the above…It was, and quite frankly a little embarrassing to say, simply having a little teeny weeny lack of the big “I” word…..”Inspiration”
As I try to fathom the past few months of my life since my last blog, I am overwhelmed with the amount of times I found myself falling apart, normally as humans we should be able to just get up and dust ourselves off right? Well that wasn’t the case for me, not straight away anyway. My mind is going a million miles an hour, so many words, paragraphs, statements, questions, hopes, dreams, disappointments, memories, grief, future hopes and dreams, good days and a fair share of a few :)-ng bad days. I feel like I have gone into battle, not with a thousand swords, but with a thousand words.
With life and its wonderful and not so wonderful surprises it would be fair to say that inspiration can sometimes be non-existent!! Well even the best of us can fail at that one too. So how do we get back on track? How do we overcome the sadness that sends our life into a spiralling frenzy? Everyone has had a breaking point in their lives, I for one have a limit and when something, someone, or circumstances reach it, I will dismiss if from my life. So after eliminating the bull-:) that was causing angst in my wellbeing, I came to the conclusion that the only inspiration I needed at this very moment was from what I can do to inspire myself and hopefully inspire you.
We are the only ones that can achieve what we want out of life. If you don’t like what is happening around your world, wishing that it wasn’t happening, change it. If there are things you want in your life, get off your a$$ and get it. If you are searching for that dream job, chase it. If you are looking for your relationship to flourish and improve, do something about it. If you want your kids to learn from you, take the time to teach them. I could go on and on and on with scenario’s but I don’t need to. Just like any song you listen to, if your soul is going through happiness, sadness, anxiousness or euphoria the lyrics will speak to you.
If you have ever wanted to close a chapter in your life for the very last time, never to return, NOW is the time to do it. It’s time to turn the page, close the book even, rip out the pages that have caused pain, it’s time to start living for yourself right now, get what you deserve and rid the people, things or situations that do not deserve you. You can’t correct what has been the past, but you can let it go and move onwards and upwards and with the right headspace you will improve your future, your wellbeing and your state of mind.
I choose to close that part of my life right here right now; I respect and love myself way too much to allow this to rule my mind, soul and body.
Believe me, it wasn’t easy to let go, it wasn’t a case of waking up one morning and saying ‘:) it, enough is enough’. It was a slow and drawn out process, it felt like a steel blade slowly being forced through my heart, every disappointment was just another millimetre deeper.
I am starting to focus on myself, it’s time to start to get into the habit of being the most important person in the universe, then everything else that we are searching answers for will all start to fall into place. For me, my life will turn around, my family will succeed and every dream they have will be reached, my relationship will be stronger than it has ever been before, and my career will change and get better with each new adventure. Trust me, it will. It will not come without any casualties, but be rest assured we will be the ones on top of the game, ready for what the universe has to offer.
One day, soon enough, things will change, laugh at the confusion, cry a tear only for the joy when things turn out for the better. Your own happiness and wellbeing is the foundation for the best that life can offer. Take it, learn from it and above all do not look back at that chapter. Start looking within yourself to find happiness, not the place where it was lost. If you can’t do anything about circumstances that have changed your life dramatically, then you need to stop making yourself accountable for things you cannot change. Let that sh:)it go, and see what stays. You will be amazed!!!
♥ Stay true to yourself ♥
