I Tried to Will Myself to Stop Existing…And it Didn’t Work.

Inching forward, on and on and on.

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Just some backstory: As a kid, I had seizures, and my epilepsy meds gave me night terrors.

I was super familiar with how things that weren’t real could feel real. Things that were just in my head made my heart race.




Articles on my mental health journey. Anxiety. Trauma. Inspiration.

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